‘Yesterday’

There comes a point in time when you can be kept busy enough to ignore what’s on your own mind. Eventually it catches up to you. Sometimes it’s a revelation, other times it’s something you wanted to deny.

Today was one of those days. I came back down to reality. Classes are over and my days have gone from spending time in class and socializing in the cafeteria for hours on end to being buried nose-first in the books. It gives you a lot of alone time to think. To contemplate. To come to realization.

I question my motives, my actions, and even my feelings over the past month. Am I being the person I was before or am I avoiding who I used to be – ‘Used to be’… have I really changed at all? Am I trying to keep myself busy, both physically and mentally to keep my mind off things? Am I trying to fill a void or am I trying to bring something new into my life?

Coming to Chicago has in a ways has been a ‘fresh start’ in my life; in some ways expected, and others unexpected. I love it here and I love how I’ve spent my time but there is still part of me that lingers in the past. How do I bring all of myself to the present?

Take it one day at a time…